Day Four

Today has come and gone in a flash. The days seem to be going by faster and I am thankfull for that.  I got a quick phone call from Chris today but that is the last one I will get for a very long time.  Things seem to be getting easier for me but for the kids it isn't.  The baby had a melt down today because he saw his Daddy's work jacket.  I feel so bad for my kids when they get upset because he is gone.  There is nothing I can do to make it any better for them.  I am learning to just give them some love and let them know he will be back.  I also let them know that I am here and am not going any where. This last thing helps the older ones but not the baby.  I don't think there is anything you can tell a two year old that will make them be ok with a parent being deployed.  It is hard on the families but what a lot of people forget is the sailors and soldiers have it hard too.  At times I think my husband has it harder than I do.  I have my kids and my home to comfort me, whereas he does not.  I can pick up and go anywhere just to break up the routine, he cannot.  He is confined to a ship.  Yes it is large but that fact still remains that it is a ship he cannot leave it when it is in the middle of the ocean.  I can eat anything I want and I can watch any tv show I want, I can go to the movies and so many other things.  When I compare the two it shows me that if he can survive this time on a ship then I better be able to survive this time at home in my own bed. 
I envy the fact that he gets to go around the world and see new ports and experience different cultures but damn I like my own bed a little to much to be able to live on a ship for as long as he does.  I would fall out of their ranks every night. lol. 
Well that's my insight for the day.  I am gonna relax since it is nice and quiet at my house and then crawl into my wonderful comfy bed and snuggle all my pillows and pretend I am snuggling my husband.  Day four just got it's a** kicked!