Day 16...I think

Well I have lost track of what day we are on.  No big deal it is probably better that way.  Today was a good day.  Went to the store with my friend and she got stuff for her care package.  Then we did some scrap booking and made a big link chain for the kids so that they can take one off each day.  To help them see the days going by.  We also went for a long walk this evening.  The walk was great because I don't do it enough.
I have received so many emails from my husband lately and it is great.  He has written me some very sweet emails that just make my heart melt.  He can be the sweetest most loving man in the world.  There has been a lot going on with the other wives here and it seems like in the hard times a lot of the wives rally together.  It is really refreshing to see.  I am so glad that people are pulling together.  It gives me new hope that I can make really good friends here.
Well time to relax before I go to bed.

Two weeks down

I have been gone the last few days.  Me and the boys went on a camping trip with my friend Justine.  And we celebrated Donavyn's ninth birthday.  We had a really good time and it made the last week go by so fast.  I am glad to have a friend that I am so close with that I would consider her family.  She will do anything to help me and my family and I would do anything for her.  She is just a great person and an even better friend.
I have received many emails from Chris the last few days and he always has something funny to say.  I think he just likes to know that I will smile when I read his emails. He is an amazing man and I love him to death.  I am looking forward to sending out his care package.  He always loves getting them. 
C.J. has been trying to get his molars in the last few days so he is very upset.  All of my kids are growing up way to fast.  Donavyn is 9, Meadow starts school this year, and C.J is potty training.  I don't know where the time has gone.  I miss when they were little and loved being held but I also love the age they are at now.

Days Seven, Eight, and Nine

Well the last few days have been busy.  I helped my friend move and I've been doing homework and running from here to there.  Life seems to be getting into a more normal routine since Chris left.  This is such a blessing it makes the days go by so much faster.  We are a week into this deployment and it doesn't seem like he has been gone that long.  I have slowly started picking things up for his first care package.  I ordered a ship to shore phone card so that he can call me while he is gone. 
My husband is a big banana freak not bananas but any banana flavored candy. lol  Today I want to the commissary and found a big bucket full of banana flavored laffy taffy.  I bought two of them to send to Chris.  He is gonna be so excited when he gets them.  Finding stuff like this that I know will make him excited really makes my day.  It helps ease the loneliness I feel when he is gone.
The kids are starting to get better about their Dad being gone.  Last night the baby told me "Daddy on boat in water, working".  It was so cute to finally have him realize why Daddy was gone.  Everyday is getting easier for all of us.


 Now matter how far he sails, we know he will always sail right back to us.  And he will always sail in our hearts.

Day Six

Today has been pretty good.  I got my living room organized and through away so much crap.  C.J my two year old was having a rough day. He laid on me for the longest time and just cried for his daddy while I rubbed his back and told him daddy would be home as soon as he was done working.  I didn't know what else to say.  It breaks my heart to see the kids upset like that but I have ever done this before so I don't always know how to handle it.  Tomorrow is a busy day because I am helping a new friend move.  I am excited about it though.  Not really a whole lot to say tonight.  Things are going ok not a hundred percent yet but I am happy and I am content with the fact that he will be home.  But it doesn't always make things easier.  Sometimes it seems like homecoming will never happens.  This is one of those times where you just can't imagine that far into the future.  I am sure I will get through it though because each day he is gone brings him one day closer to me.

Day Five

Oh wow, today was a little more difficult for me.  I was just overwhelmed with all the emotions of the deployment.  I got out of the house though which was fun.  I took the kids to the beach and they played in the sand for a long time.  I think we brought home a pound of sand but it was fun. 
I only received one email from my husband and that didn't help my bad mood today at all.  But I understand he has a job to do and can't email me every five minutes.  I just wish we had a set time that he would email at but it is almost impossible to do that.  It gets difficult when you go all day with no email. I am just hoping that this lonely feeling will go away at least a little bit.  I just need to get my head back together and get into a good spot so that I can make it through the next several months without to many bad days.
I miss Chris like crazy and so do my kids.  I can see in their behavior that they are having just as hard of a time with this as I am.  I am just a lot better at hiding it then they are.  I just hope I can find things to get their mind off of it so that they can just be kids and be happy.
Well that is all I need sleep.  I think that might be my main problem, I haven't been sleeping well and lack of sleep doesn't help hard situations at all.  One less night to go.

Day Four

Today has come and gone in a flash. The days seem to be going by faster and I am thankfull for that.  I got a quick phone call from Chris today but that is the last one I will get for a very long time.  Things seem to be getting easier for me but for the kids it isn't.  The baby had a melt down today because he saw his Daddy's work jacket.  I feel so bad for my kids when they get upset because he is gone.  There is nothing I can do to make it any better for them.  I am learning to just give them some love and let them know he will be back.  I also let them know that I am here and am not going any where. This last thing helps the older ones but not the baby.  I don't think there is anything you can tell a two year old that will make them be ok with a parent being deployed.  It is hard on the families but what a lot of people forget is the sailors and soldiers have it hard too.  At times I think my husband has it harder than I do.  I have my kids and my home to comfort me, whereas he does not.  I can pick up and go anywhere just to break up the routine, he cannot.  He is confined to a ship.  Yes it is large but that fact still remains that it is a ship he cannot leave it when it is in the middle of the ocean.  I can eat anything I want and I can watch any tv show I want, I can go to the movies and so many other things.  When I compare the two it shows me that if he can survive this time on a ship then I better be able to survive this time at home in my own bed. 
I envy the fact that he gets to go around the world and see new ports and experience different cultures but damn I like my own bed a little to much to be able to live on a ship for as long as he does.  I would fall out of their ranks every night. lol. 
Well that's my insight for the day.  I am gonna relax since it is nice and quiet at my house and then crawl into my wonderful comfy bed and snuggle all my pillows and pretend I am snuggling my husband.  Day four just got it's a** kicked!

Sailor Daddy

My daddy loves me
I already know
He hugs me and kisses me
Please daddy, don't go.
As he leaves our home
On this cold wintery morn
I know that I'll miss him
My heart will be torn.
See my daddy's a sailor
I'm so glad to say
He sails on a ship
Sometimes so far away.
He travels the ocean
And goes to many places
He visits foreign countries
And sees different faces.
My daddy he misses me
He always writes me a letter
To say he'll be home soon
And that all will be better.
I'm counting the days
Until my daddy comes back
When he walks in the door
I will help him unpack.
Oh daddy please hurry
I'm waiting for you
I know you're still out there
On the ocean so blue.
Just sailing and sailing
And sailing the seas
I hope you are coming
Hurry up daddy, please.
It's been a long time
But the day's finally here
When my daddy comes home
I know that he's near.
I watch as his ship
Returns from the sea
We're proud of my daddy
My mommy and me.
He walks off the ship
As proud as can be
He did his part
So we can be free.
I run to my daddy
For a hug and a kiss
He squeezes me so tightly
A squeeze that I miss.
I'm happy my dad's home
Happy as can be
I know he did his job
For my mommy and me.

I saw this and loved it.  Thought it would be nice to share.