Day Five

Oh wow, today was a little more difficult for me.  I was just overwhelmed with all the emotions of the deployment.  I got out of the house though which was fun.  I took the kids to the beach and they played in the sand for a long time.  I think we brought home a pound of sand but it was fun. 
I only received one email from my husband and that didn't help my bad mood today at all.  But I understand he has a job to do and can't email me every five minutes.  I just wish we had a set time that he would email at but it is almost impossible to do that.  It gets difficult when you go all day with no email. I am just hoping that this lonely feeling will go away at least a little bit.  I just need to get my head back together and get into a good spot so that I can make it through the next several months without to many bad days.
I miss Chris like crazy and so do my kids.  I can see in their behavior that they are having just as hard of a time with this as I am.  I am just a lot better at hiding it then they are.  I just hope I can find things to get their mind off of it so that they can just be kids and be happy.
Well that is all I need sleep.  I think that might be my main problem, I haven't been sleeping well and lack of sleep doesn't help hard situations at all.  One less night to go.